Maximilian-Aurea

As belezas da vida continuaram ate que nossas memorias se acabam. Ate o dia em que eu tambem desapareço deste mundo, lembrarei a sua beleza em espirito e com muito amor. Você a amiga, a segunda mae que eu tanto precisei. Obrigado por ter existido, e a tua paciencia em lidar com as minhas burrices.

Obrigado pela paciencia e amizade com a minha mae, apesar das dificuldades. Foi por seu sacrificio que hoje tenho um nivel de entendimento com ela. Por seu esforço, podemos conviver juntos. Nunca fomos perfeitos, nenhum de nos, mas voce sempre acreditou em nos. Sempre nos amou.

Me perdoe por nao estar presente no seu ultimo momento de vida. Eu lamento isso com todo meu coraçao, e espero que entende porque eu nao pude ver outro amado morrer a frente dos meus olhos. Eu nao teria a força para continuar vivendo sem voce.

Obrigado por tudo. Pelo seu amor. Sua sabedoria. Seu sorriso. Seu carinho. Sua mera existencia - tao grande que simples palavram nunca poderam capturar a beleza e o poder do seu espirito.

Que eles se fodam. Nunca esquecerei as tuas palavras - immortalizadas em meu proprio espirito.

"Chin up. I know they keep trying to bring you down, but you just keep fighting, okay? You were meant for more than this. You will not die here. Believe in yourself, even when no one else does. You're amazing, and never forget that. Worse comes to worst, you tell them to fuck off! You have no idea how strong you are. Give 'em hell, kid." - A wise old Dutch woman's love.

Been a while, folks.

Has it really been two years since I made this new account? That means I've been here four or five years... Oh, my.

So many things have changed. My attitude, my appearance, my writing style, my prime focus, my goals, my dreams, my tastes... I've become more refined, more elegant, but also managed to strip away some of the overbearing complexity that once dragged me down.

Yet strangely enough I find myself returning to old tastes and habits. These last two years I've hidden my true self away so that I could work in the business world doing something I didn't feel was right. I was barely living, unhappy with my direction and my actions, suffering through a toxic relationship, without family and friends to help me, completely lost in my own misery.

I must say, I've never felt so good in my life. All the toxicity and insanity of the previous two years have only served to refine my spirit and strengthen me. I have become boundlessly confident, much healthier, infinitely happier, and every passing day I am exposed to new moments of intense beauty and lasting experiences that shall forever paint my memories.

I abandoned my old Fantasy work, that outdated, nostalgic, overly-romanticized garbage I wrote as a hopeless romantic teenager. In its place, I've assimilated it into a massive, highly-complex Scifi multiverse of epic proportions, on the level of D&D and Warhammer. I've been pouring my thoughts and energy into constantly expanding it, but I've hit a plateau.

I can only do so much alone. Now, I am searching for fellow writers, illustrators, editors, programmers, roleplayers, individuals who share aspects of my passion and might be willing to network in order to improve each others' skills and material. I've gathered up quite an impressive group of artistic friends I communicate with daily via Skype, facebook, and various forums, but I hunger for more. More breadth, more detail, more ideas, more chaos. No longer is this just my own pet-project, a biography in literary terms. This is my legacy, my passion, an over-arching Science-fiction multiverse replete with every aspect of the human spirit, every horror from which all men flee, and every possible chance for strife I can muster. I don't just want a simple beginning-to-end Scifi project, I'm building something I can work on for decades yet never truly finish.

I'm enjoying myself, having a fucking blast, and would have it no other way!

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Hello, all!

Its been quite a while since last I updated my journal~

I've recently recovered from the sickness that has been hammering me for months, and been able to get warmed up to a few friends I haven't seen in a while. On top of getting back on the guitar and keyboard, I'd say that's pretty good for the beginning of a new year.

Which reminds me, I blew my amp last week... I'm looking to buy an electric guitar, a keyboard, and an amp. Amp doesn't really matter yet, what I'm really wanting is a good electric, I've been checking out the Dean Razorback's, I've wanted one for quite a while now!

As for keyboards, well, I gave my old keyboard away when I move back to the US from Brazil, so I haven't really touched one in a few years. I'm questing around, seeing if I can find someone who's got a keyboard they rarely use, or a cheapish one selling around here lol.

I'm trying to keep my money dedicated to my guitar-play Definitely in need of new gear... New strings, case, and of course a new guitar, something nice~

And hopefully I'll get back to writing, sometime soon.

Have a good one, people.

Remember: with the year's end comes cleansing, and with the birth anew comes an age of potential, where we may break free of our worries and regrets, looking towards the skies in hope for the future.

I'll probably be writing another journal soon, I've got an awesome short-story coming up, and my 18th birthday is pretty soon!

Keep in touch!