Listening to: Sentinel by Judas Priest
Reading: Ravenor: The Omnibus (Warhammer40k)
Playing: The Soul's Melody
Eating: Musclemaker Grill's Resolution Wrap
Has it really been two years since I made this new account? That means I've been here four or five years... Oh, my.
So many things have changed. My attitude, my appearance, my writing style, my prime focus, my goals, my dreams, my tastes... I've become more refined, more elegant, but also managed to strip away some of the overbearing complexity that once dragged me down.
Yet strangely enough I find myself returning to old tastes and habits. These last two years I've hidden my true self away so that I could work in the business world doing something I didn't feel was right. I was barely living, unhappy with my direction and my actions, suffering through a toxic relationship, without family and friends to help me, completely lost in my own misery.
I must say, I've never felt so good in my life. All the toxicity and insanity of the previous two years have only served to refine my spirit and strengthen me. I have become boundlessly confident, much healthier, infinitely happier, and every passing day I am exposed to new moments of intense beauty and lasting experiences that shall forever paint my memories.
I abandoned my old Fantasy work, that outdated, nostalgic, overly-romanticized garbage I wrote as a hopeless romantic teenager. In its place, I've assimilated it into a massive, highly-complex Scifi multiverse of epic proportions, on the level of D&D and Warhammer. I've been pouring my thoughts and energy into constantly expanding it, but I've hit a plateau.
I can only do so much alone. Now, I am searching for fellow writers, illustrators, editors, programmers, roleplayers, individuals who share aspects of my passion and might be willing to network in order to improve each others' skills and material. I've gathered up quite an impressive group of artistic friends I communicate with daily via Skype, facebook, and various forums, but I hunger for more. More breadth, more detail, more ideas, more chaos. No longer is this just my own pet-project, a biography in literary terms. This is my legacy, my passion, an over-arching Science-fiction multiverse replete with every aspect of the human spirit, every horror from which all men flee, and every possible chance for strife I can muster. I don't just want a simple beginning-to-end Scifi project, I'm building something I can work on for decades yet never truly finish.
I'm enjoying myself, having a fucking blast, and would have it no other way!